The mundane...

I have been at a loss lately as to what to blog about. It's difficult for me to put together a coherent post when there is so much going on. Sometimes I get discouraged because I feel like I set goals to frequently blog, but run out of things to say, or I run out of exciting news to write about. But the reality is that although busy lately, things have been pretty mundane. I feel like we've been at a stand still with the adoption process, as we are still working on paperwork, saving money, etc; Our schedules seem pretty routine with work, Jeremy going to school, taking care of the house, and the all too familiar day-to-day stuff...But what I've learned is that I completely underestimate the mundane. I have always viewed it negatively, and I've always let it affect me negatively. But I'm starting to see that God does some of His best work in the mundane. I feel like He uses these times to strengthen, teach, prepare, guide, and heal me. And that is way more important than a certain number or exciting, news-packed blog posts.

He has really been dealing with me in areas of insecurity in my life. I mean really dealing with me. In.My.Face. It's affecting our marriage. Controlling my life. Stealing my joy. Allowing room for Satan to attack. The "dealing with it" part is harsh, but oh so worth it. Ultimately it just comes down to who I am in Christ. I have to focus on that. I have to walk confidently in that, and nurture it, so that when I begin to feel that I am

*inadequate
*irrational
*unworthy
*fat
*unhealthy
*not good enough
*ugly
*not smart enough
*lacking or
*compared,

I can conquer insecurity and be at my best for God, for my husband, my family, my friends, and soon, my children. Because the truth is, as eloquently as Mercy Me puts it:

"Before you ever took a breath
Long before the world began
Of all the wonders He possessed
There was one more precious
Of all the earth and skies above
You're the one He madly loves
Enough to die!"

"You're beautiful, You're beautiful
You are made for so much more than all of this,
You're beautiful, You're beautiful
You are treasured, you are sacred, you are His."

I'll take that!